Boob Day!

...we all have good days and bad days I guess...

Today is Tuesday, which means, it's BOOB DAY! The day I go in and get my boobs pumped up. I'm running low on time though, so I'm going to ask if I can come back in on Friday and get another pump. Cross your fingers for me.

Today is also a day when I woke up with a raging headache. It sucks. My head hurts so bad right now. I really need to buy some smaller tylenol too. I took some a few minutes ago, but because of their coating, they get stuck going down and almost cause more grief than the headache itself. Grr. They are mostly down now though, and so hopefully this headache will get outta here soon too. It hurts all the way down my neck.

Well, we all have good days and bad days I guess. Overall, I'm feeling better with life. I have some great friends now, that I actually hang out with! And some good friends at work too, so it makes my day easier. My weight loss is going brilliantly, even with the lack of exercise, which, by the way, I should be able to start up again tomorrow. Yay!! So it'll be back to the elliptical for me. *grins* I can't wait. I already have been sneaking in a little here and there to make sure my body hasn't forgotten how to exercise. Just nothing too horribly heart pounding.

Well, that's all for now. My head is still pounding, so thinking of what to write is causing me pain.

Bad Day

...the dentist got a piece of metal stuck in my tooth...

I'm having a bad day. Actually, a bad couple of days. If you count Monday, which I would, a total of 3 bad days in the same week. Not a good thing, lemme tell ya.

Monday I had a root canal. It was supposed to be all one shot, they dig out the tooth, they give me a filling, then I come back later for a cap on the tooth. Then, the dentist got a piece of metal stuck in my tooth. It broke off from one of the tools he used to scrape out my tooth. He says I have to see a specialist to get the piece out. I asked him if it wouldn't be better just to pull the tooth, but since that tooth has such good roots, he didn't want to.

When I left that day it didn't hurt too bad. I went to Crue Fest on Tuesday, had a nice day off on Wednesday, and then it started to hurt a little. As of yesterday it was excruciating. To the point I had to take my yummy liquid vicodin to fix it, and even that didn't really work. A half dose didn't work at all, and a whole dose just numbed it a bit. Enough to make me comfortable.

I couldn't eat. Then on top of all that, I've gained weight. Not alot. Just like, a pound over the last 2 days. I expected to gain a little because, lets face it, I wasn't eating perfectly on my two days off. Not alot of choices at the concert, then the next day was popcorn and stuff because we spent 6+ hours in a movie theater. Though I have to say I did try to cut back on the other food I ate because I knew I was eating alot of popcorn.

I even jumped on the treadmill yesterday for 31 minutes. Today though, I was up .7 lbs. I really shouldn't let it bother me, but combined with the other crap...arg.

So in addition to all that, I got a letter that I was going to be garnished. Now, I haven't mentioned it, because I've been working on my WLS blog more than this one, but I have an appointment with a lawyer today for bankruptcy. I know he's going to fix it, but in the meantime we're down $283 bucks on a check that was already short from time off a few weeks ago. I am not looking forward to telling my BF.

The garnishment is coming from one of my medical bills from last year, which got me to thinking. I have a friend, who also has cancer, (I'll call him Dude) and because he worked for a TV company was able to raise himself a good chunk of change to help cover his medical bills. He even got to go to Disneyland, and he's still asking people for money, and I think he's selling cancer t-shirts too. Now, don't get me wrong, he's my friend and all so I don't begrudge him the help, but I can't help feeling a little abandoned that no one really helped me. I've had that donation button up on my site since I was diagnosed, and it had one hit.

I'm not trying to make you people feel guilty or anything. This is my blog, and I'm venting. So don't make any changes on account of these statements. I'm just feeling jealous that Dude was able to get help, and I wasn't. I'm jealous that people care about him and not about me. I'm upset because the people I'm really close to that would have helped are all broke and/or welfare recipients. And I'm pissed that I didn't go to college and get rich and not have to be in this damn situation in the first place.

I'm having a bad day.

Wish me luck with the lawyer.

Time and effort

...little update just foryou!...

So I've got all this time at home and all I can seem to do is lay around and be a cripple. I really would like to be up and about and doing stuff but it freakin' hurts.
Not that I should complain. It's not like I don't have any help around the house. The BF does the dishes and gets me anything I need, but I get tired of just laying around.

I've decided to start walking tomorrow, pain or no pain. Maybe that'll work some of the stiffness out of my legs.

Ok, that's enough complaining. My friend Esther recently told me that she's getting married. I'm not sure if I've mentioned that already, I suppose that I could go back and look at my old blogs, but nah, I'll just let it go. She's getting married on April 20th. I'm to be the officiant. I'm also making her a wedding dress. It's pretty nice, if you ask me. It's purple velvet, and will have white panels in the bottom that peek out when she walks. I really hope she likes it. I've made costumes before, but never a serious dress before. So, I'm also hoping it comes out ok. hee hee. It's a surprise, so really, if it doesn't, I can just not mention it, that way she's not disappointed.

Well, that's it for now. I've updated, I'll try to update more soon. TTYL!

Ouch.

...They made sure I was the right person...

Surgery is over. It wasn't as bad as I'd thought it would be. It hurts now though! lol.

Here's how it went down. Thursday morning we got up bright and early. I took a shower, washing first with regular soap, then again with the special anti-bacterial soap I was given. It didn't smell so great, but it wasn't as bad as it could have been, I suppose.

After that we drove over to the hospital and my boyfriend dropped me off. He waited around for a bit, but they had stuff to do that he couldn't be back there for and he had to get the kids off to school.

My surgery was scheduled for 9:15 AM, and I got there just before 7:15 AM, which is when they told me to be there. I signed in and waited. They made sure I was the right person, and that my paperwork was in order, then they sent me back to get my gown on and whatnot.

I got on my gown in this little cubby of a room... well, not so much a room as a bed with curtains around it. The gown was really cool, there was this hose that you could hook up to the gown to make yourself warmer or cooler, like your own personal atmosphere. I got some little bootie slippers and talked to a nurse. They asked me those, when have you eaten last? and when did you last drink something? and all that.

Around 8 something, a nurse came over and said they were ready for me. Ready for me?? WTF? I wasn't supposed to go till 9:15!! They hadn't even gotten my IV in yet. So they picked up the pace, got my IV in and took me over to the Operating room.
I was so panicked about that IV, but the lady did a good job distracting me, and they numbed it before sticking in the actual IV.

It wasn't as big as you see on TV, but it was still cool, with all those lights and stuff. I made some jokes with the anesthesia guy and the attending nurse lady. They put me on a new table, like a plank really. It fit ok, but it was kind of nerve wrecking being on such a small table.

My arms were put up on these black boards that were away from the bed, like straight cactus arms. They put on a blood pressure cuff, and some of those sticky monitoring things, and I watched it all. The last thing I remember was verbally noting that my left arm looked blotchy from the antibiotics I was given.

Then, I woke up! There was a nurse talking to me about something... she asked me some questions, like who was supposed to pick me up. I remember it took a minute for me to answer here because it was hard to focus my thoughts. I looked at the clock and it was only 10'ish. That was good because, they'd told me it would be 5-6 hours. It was actually only a couple of hours, which gave me more time at home! Yay me!

They let me sit there for a minute, then I went back to recovery - the bed with the curtain around it. The BF came in to hang out with me and I ate some crackers, drank some juice, and had some pills. MMMMMmmmm... hee hee.

Then I went home! I'm on pain pills now, and yes, it hurts. I'm trying not to take too much because the big drugs I was given are supposed to be addictive. That, and I can't drive while I'm taking them. So I have to be off them by Monday so I can go to work. I may be late that day though... depends on how I feel.


Well, that's it for today. That was alot of typing. lol

Pain

...had a headache off and on for the lastmonth...

Oh... my.... gosh.... my head hurts today. I've had a headache off and on (more on than off...) for the last month or more. I'm making a doctors appointment for next week to find out if there's anything that can be done about it other than giving me more pills. Yikes.

So, I made cookies yesterday. Yay! What kind? Well, cherry cordial chip, of course! lol They're like chocolate chip, except that instead of just having chocolate chips they also have cherry chips in them too. So they taste like a cherry cordial in a cookie!! mmmmmmmmmmm.

I even brought some to work with me today to share. There's this old dude that always has cookies and offers them to me. Sometimes they are even tasty (usually they taste like the plastic bag he brings them in, and cigarettes...). So I figured I'd give back today with my abundance of cookies I didn't need to eat all by myself.

Today is PAYDAY!! The day I've been waiting two weeks for!! hee hee.
Today is also donut day. Yummy donuts. I had a bear claw with the yummy cinnamon almond sugar filling. mmmmmmmm. I believe the center is actually my favorite part. I could probably eat that alone. Well, maybe I'd have to have a little of the donut part, or it would probably make me sick. lol